I've been thinking a lot about the ups and downs of my weight since my successful weigh in this morning. Obviously as I've posted before, I never had a weight problem until I moved out of my house and got married. I really was never taught how to eat healthy, I never had to worry about what to eat as I was always so active I could honestly eat whatever I want and not gain.
I spent a good part of my first few years being married as a "chubby" girl. I thought I was huge but I was only about 30 pounds overweight. As my husband and I were graduating from college in 1997, I decided I'd had enough of being overweight and went and talked to my doctor about taking Fen-Phen. Somehow this doctor didn't question me on what other methods of weight loss I'd tried but he would have been surprised to know...not much of anything. I knew a few people taking Fen-Phen and it seemed like the easy way. I was so paranoid the whole time I was on it, which was only a total of 2 months but it did the trick and I lost the 30 lbs I needed to lose.
I kept it off for a while too since after graduating from college we moved to Florida where my husband had a job lined up...what we didn't have was a vehicle so we had to walk everywhere which is how I kept in shape while we lived there. The second we moved home though, boom the weight started piling on. Again I felt like I was the biggest person in the world where in reality I was only about 40 lbs overweight this time.
My husband and I argued a lot about my weight then, I think he was discouraged with my poor attitude which was due to my low self-esteem about my size. This time around I joined Weight Watchers, it was a miracle for me. I learned how to eat properly, I learned about portion size, I learned the importance of drinking water...in essence I finally learned how to eat healthy. It took me roughly nine months to lose 45 lbs and I kept it off for a few years. I even worked at WW for a few years as both a receptionist and a leader.
Unfortunately, I started gaining weight with no reason why. I was journaling, exercising, watching my portions, drinking lots of water but nothing helped...the weight just kept piling on. I eventually gave up my job and then the weight really piled on. It wasn't until I'd gained back all my weight plus another 40 lbs that doctors figured out I had a gluten allergy. Once I gave up gluten I dropped a quick twenty lbs. This didn't last though as I found ways to eat bad while avoiding gluten and slowly I gained that 20 back plus 30 more.
In 2011, I was sick for a while dealing with stomach issues and the eventual removal of my gall bladder...I lost 40 lbs during this time and life was great. The downside was the second my stomach felt better and I was able to eat again...I ATE! I have gained back twenty five of those forty pounds. It all leads me to now where not only am I determined to become strong again but I am hoping along the way I will lose some of these unwanted pounds. I don't have huge goals, I just want to be able to be active without getting tired so easily and it would be nice again to shop in the misses department instead of the plus department.
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